Tomorrow, Tuesday, I’ll be 32 weeks pregnant. Technically only eight more weeks to go, however, it feels like an eternity. Yes, I’m a little uncomfortable now and doing the normal mommy tasks like changing Kendall’s diaper on the floor is daunting. Overall, it’s not been all that bad. I’ve mentioned before that I live in Minnesota and the winter (like much of the US) has been relentless. Yesterday we had our first taste of spring with a high of 60*F! Supposedly today we’re going to have another winter storm. Sure it’s rain/snow mixed, however, I think I may throw something breakable out the window if I see that white falling from the sky. I think that’s one reason why I’m just so ready to be done with this pregnancy. I’m ready for a change of scene and if I’m not going to get it from the weather than by golly I want to see my new baby!
The other reason why I’m so ready to be done with this pregnancy is because I have no clue what gender the baby is. If you remember we didn’t find out with this pregnancy and despite my wanting to know I honored my husband’s wishes to be surprised. We had found out the gender with our first two pregnancies and he’s always wanted to be surprised. It’s the least I could do for him (to fully understand this you’ll have to read my previous post). This past week alone I have had three friends have their babies. I want my baby!! Not knowing what the gender is has been killing my patience (and I’m not a patient person to begin with).
I love this baby growing inside of me but the surprise of the gender kind of makes me feel like the baby is ambiguous. I don’t want to think of it as one gender more than the other because if it’s wrong I don’t want to be thrown off. I also don’t really have a preference for any gender over the other. I know the baby’s movements, a basic schedule, and I can kind of picture my baby but it’s definitely not the same as my other pregnancies.
If I could do it all over again here’s what I would do:
- Baby #1 would be a surprise because I could focus solely on the pregnancy and nothing else. Having other children to care for has really kept me busy and distracted so I rarely lay around soaking in all of those pregnancy moments you have as a first time mom.
- Baby #2 and #3 would not be surprises for the mere fact that I do not have time to be still and focus on my baby. By knowing the gender of my second child before her birth I was able to think about her, dream about what she would look like while I was chasing my oldest around the house.
That’s my little update…I’ll do my best to be patient. I mean I don’t really have any control over when I’ll meet this child. In the meantime I’ll get to know his or hers quirks until I can see this child face to face.